Saturday, November 17, 2012

Biscuits



10:00 PM, the four of us entered the flat. Quietly and well equipped we headed towards the bedroom, to start reading.

Me, J.B, Dharmesh and Mamu meet daily at J.B’s uncle’s vacant flat to read through the night with peace and dedication, without any disturbance. But such a reading session as serious as it sounds here, hardly took place. I do not think I need to say why. Still to brief it up, we spent most of the time joking, laughing and talking. And when were quiet, our minds were at play. Apart from myself, I can confidently say this for my friends owing to that wonderful sense we all know, by which you can tell what are your friends at, by looking at them.

As I could not read their thoughts, I am unable to describe any interesting one here. But I am sharing one of my own.

I had the chemistry text book. And one sentence read ‘This acts as a catalyst’. This is an interesting word, I thought. ‘Catalyst’,  ‘Cat – a – list‘ , ‘cat’ ‘a list’.

‘Cat’ – My mind ran back to Kolkata when it was Calcutta and I used to live there. We had about 10 cats. I started recalling their names. ‘Bageera’, ‘Kudaku’, ‘Minibai’, ‘Dhodki’, ‘Phantom’….. . I wondered where were they and what were they doing. Ah! Those were the days.
Then I jumped to ‘a list’. ‘A list’. Which list? My list! Where was my list? I reached for my pocket, but it was not there. Because I was wearing my nigh dress track. And I had put my list in my Jeans. The list was of all the activities I had planned to do during the vacation. Joining a gym, swimming, watch movies, outing etc. First thing’s first. I will join a gym on the very evening the last paper ends. It will be the 14th. But will I be able to pay the membership fees on pro rata basis? Or will I have to pay for the whole month? If so, why not pay today? It’s the 1st of the month. That’s a good idea!

And suddenly, I snapped out of the thought process as I realized that the exam is yet to start tomorrow and I am to prepare for the first paper right now. So completing the circle of thoughts, I came back to the chemistry text book.

I looked at J.B. He was starring at a pigeon sitting outside the window. It seemed like he was trying to hypnotize it to sleep. Because the pigeon lowered itself on the ledge and kept closing and opening its eyes as if dozing.

Dharmesh was sitting with his back against a wall and knees bent to his chest, with a book on his tummy. But he was looking at his right fist and seemed lost in thoughts.

Mamu was sitting with one leg bent to his chest and other one folded perpendicular to it on the mattress, with his head resting on one hand. And he was looking down at some diagrams. But when I bent dow and checked, I saw that he was looking at the nail of his toe which he was pricking with his finger.

As I read through to the end of the page, my nose tickled and I sneezed. After a few seconds, I sneezed again and again and again. So in a minute, I sneezed about 8 times. It was like the allergic sneezed attack many people get sometimes. I get it too. But after such an attack, I also get a secret thing which others don’t. I get hungry!!!

After clearing and wiping my nose of the natural adhesive, I announced, “Brothers, I am hungry now”. J.B who has a distinct toy gun sound like laughter (The one that goes rat-tat-tat-tat) went “HA HA HA HA HA HA……HA HA HA HA HA…”.  Mamu looked at me and exclaimed “What!”. Dharmesh stared at me for a while and asked “Haven’t you had your dinner?”. I said, “Yes, I have. But guys don’t know, whenever I get such a sneeze attack, it leaves me with a sudden and immediate feel of hunger. I need to eat something now.” J.B’s toy gun was still rattling and Hardik said again “What!”.

I smiled and said, “It’s true, I feel hungry and need to eat something.” Dharmesh said, “But look at the time, its 11:30 pm. What would we get at this time?” Mamu said, “That’s true, we won’t be able to find anything to eat in our area.” I looked at J.B who had now settled down to smiling and asked, “Do we have any eatables here in this flat?” “No, my uncle used this flat as an office. And it has been unused since long now. So there is nothing to eat here.” J.B said.

“What do we do now?”, I said. Mamu replied, “It’s our first paper tomorrow.” Dharmesh said, “There is nothing to do. Lets get back to reading.” But J.B came to my rescue. He said, “But guys, even I am somewhat hungry.” “See”, I said, “Let’s go out and have some snacks. We will come back soon.” Dharmesh said, “Okay, but I will not take out my bike. We will just walk around and see what can we get.” “No problem”, I said. “Come on Mamu,” J.B said. “But its our first paper tomorrow”, Mamu repeated. “So what? We will be back before the paper start”, I said. J.B added, “And why do you need to worry anyways, you are a ranker.”

“Fine, lets go.” Mamu agreed. “Wait” Dharmesh said. “How much money do we have on us? Let’s check first.”. At that moment, we realized that we all were in our night dress and not carrying our wallets. Pulling out his pockets, J.B declared, “I have got nothing at all.” Mamu and I searched our pockets for a while and came up with one rupee each. It was now Dharmesh’s turn. He smiled, reached down the pocket of his short and pulled out his wallet. He flashed it like a player holding the trump card. And we all started grinning at each other. Dharmesh opened the wallet and added his fund to our coins. And the total shot up to 700……..paise. Because after digging through all the obvious and secret compartments of his wallet, he came up 5 1 rupee coins. So now, we had a grand total of 7 rupees. And it was 11:45 pm.
“What will we get for 7 rupees?” I raised my doubt. J.B’s toy gun was triggered again. “Forget it, we can’t get anything for this”, said Dharmesh. “Right” Mamu agreed. But I said, “Let’s atleast go out and get whatever we can. We will atleast get something. I am hungry guys. Look, we can atleast get a packet of biscuits, can’t we?”. Finally after 5 minutes, we were walking down the road, looking for a shop. After 10 minutes, we found only one small pan wallah still open, but preparing to close.

“Dharmesh, quick go and get a biscuit packet before he closes”, I said. Dharmesh replied. “No way man, I am not taking this chiller (change) to buy anything.” “Why not?”, I inquired. “Because its embarrassing”, he replied. “What’s embarrassing about paying money and buying biscuits?”, I asked. “The embarrassing thing is this chiller (change). These 7 one rupee coins. And I am wearing a short and this wrinkled t-shirt with a  hole here. If I go like this with this chiller, at this time of night to buy a packet of biscuits, the person might take me for a beggar thinking I have begged these coins during the day and now want to eat biscuits with them.” Dharmesh replied.

We all broke into roaring laugher on hearing this. And Dharmesh himself also joined in. After a full minute of non-stop laughing, I said “But Dharmesh, beggars don’t wear these kind of expensive t-shirts. And you don’t even look like a beggar, right now. You look good. Just go there, give the money and take a biscuit, that’s it.” “No way man. I am not doing it.” Dharmesh said firmly.
“Fine, Mamu will do this. He is not embarrassed. Won’t you, Mamu? I said. “No no no no. Even I am not doing this bro. I feel embarrassed too.” Mamu said. I looked at J.B. He put his hands up and said, “It’s your idea to have biscuits at this time night. You do it.” “Come on guys, what’s wrong with you all? What’s so embarrassing about paying in coins and buying biscuits??!! I asked. “So why don’t you do it then?” Mamu said. “Fine, I will do it and show you all that there is nothing embarrassing about this.”, I said. I took the coins and moved towards the shop. As I took the 4th step, the shopkeeper looked at me. And suddenly, I felt the embarrassment like self-realization. I stopped for a moment and turned back. Dharmesh, Mamu and J.B broke out in outrageous laugher with tears rolling down their cheeks.

“Okay, okay fine. I get it.” I said slyly. “But what do we do now? We have to buy the biscuits. Please anyone of you go and get it for me. Please.” Finally, still laughing J.B agreed. “Alright, give me the coins, I will get it.” “Great, thanks dude.” I said and patted him. “Here you go.” I said and handed him the coins. “And get bourborne if possible.” I added. J.B reached the shop. We were observing from behind. J.B managed to keep a straight face, handed the coins to the shopkeeper and asked for a packet of parle g.

The shopkeeper looked at the coins and then looked at J.B. The three of us knew what the shopkeeper was thinking and started laughing. J.B tried to appear as serious and as non beggar as possible. The shopkeeper took a packet and gently gave it to J.B with a look as if he was doing the kind deed of the day.
J.B quietly took the packet and looked at the shopkeeper. The shopkeeper gave him a sympathetic smile. J.B came back to us and we all started laughing madly.
Laughing our way back all the way, we ate the biscuits. 2 to 3 pieces each. But I think those were the sweetest and most memorable biscuits I have had till now.


Saturday, April 2, 2011

Living life on my own terms

“Beep beep….beep beep…..beep beep” the alarm clock goes off destroying the peace and silence mercilessly. Its 6 AM. For the –th time (I have lost the count actually. But I know the figure is a BIG one) I snap out of an awesome dream on the most interesting turn.


DAMN IT@#$*


I instantly reach out, kill the alarm and fall back on my bed. My speed of the act can easily out beat a puff adder – the snake known to have the fastest striking speed. I try to bring the dream back. But its just gone, as always. I throw a ‘Cyclops look’ at the clock again. But instead of burning down to ash it just stands still and tells me its 6:15!!!.


Reluctantly, I sit up; and fight my way to the edge of the bed which at that time displays twice or thrice the gravitational pull (3G). Sitting there, I get in a meditative stage. That point where you are neither awake or asleep. When there are so many things in your head, but you don’t think. I don’t know how long I stay that way. I look at the clock again – 6:45!!!


MAN, this is surely time traveling!!


Time to rush now. Though each and every cell in my body wants to go back to bed, I can’t. Have to reach office at 7:30.


I push through the daily routines mechanically and zoom on my bike @ 7:20. I like to ride my bike at leisure. But I cant. Coz its getting late. I like to enjoy the cool breeze in my face. But I cant. Coz I have to put on a helmet.


I reach office. Mails, prints, letters, fax, challans, bills, scans………. I feel like a first version of a cyborg. I want to pull off the power plug of the pc and sit back and relax having a one liter cup of coffee. But I cant.


Waiting eagerly for lunch hour, I look at the clock. But I discover that it has been only 5 mins. Since I last checked the time which to me seems like a year ago. Wondering why do I loose my time traveling ability in the office, I dig in work.


1:00 at last!!! The lunch hour. The time to break free. I take out my Tiffin not with hunger but sheer joy. But I cant have lunch yet. Coz my boss calls me saying he wants me to prepare a very urgent letter and mail it to him. I fall back in my chair.


30 mins. Later, I’ve eaten my lunch and back on my chair. I feel terribly sleepy, but I cant sleep. Have to work.


Finally 5:30. The moment when I gain independence. I rush straight to my bike praying that my boss doesn’t call me with something urgent to finish. And I get lucky.


I want to go to see an old friend. On the way, my wife calls. She gives me a list of the groceries and provisions I need to buy with immediate effect, today itself. I cant go to see my friend.


I reach home with all the things, freshen up and ask for a cup of ginger tea.


Wife says its too late, better wait for sometime and have dinner. So I don’t get the tea.


Post dinner, I put the national geographic channel to watch one of my favorite automobile show. The host comes up, “Today we are gonna check out the most awaited new version of……”


The channel suddenly changes. I look around for the cause and find it to be my wife. Its time for her serial. So I don’t get to watch the show.


I move to my room. I turn on the computer and connect to the internet.


I login to facebook and read my status.


“LIVING LIFE ON MY OWN TERMS…..”

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Saw GOD

I saw our DEAR GOD today!!

Was toooo overwhelmed even to say


HE knew the situation I was in

HE smiled bewitchingly and gave a grin


HE gently put his hand on my head

I felt the warmth of a brilliant sun ray


I felt I was melting within

All anguish, worries, pain and twinge

As the dirt flowed out from my tearful eyes.

I felt FULLY empty as the sky.


Then his vibrant voice came to me

As he humbly asked, “My child, remember me?”


At that moment my heart broke out

I cried like a child

With gushing tears and sob spout


After a while I found my voice to say

God forgive me for causing you the dismay.


You are right we have forgotten you

We are your child but we still doubt about you!!


We check our emails in a regular way

But never sit down to pray.


We move heaven and earth to get a new mobile

But keep from doing a kind deed to make you smile.


We spend hours talking to our friends

But never call upon you until we need you

When we reach a dead end.


We hurt you, neglect you, forget you everytime

Yet you lovingly forgive all our crime


GOD, pls forgive us, pls open our eyes

So we may turn to you

And rediscover our tie.

Monday, June 28, 2010

life's mantra

Im tired of watching life go by

So routine so mundane

A Kite widout wind jerking to fly


Time to do something

Not just sit and sigh

Need to take charge

No more fears, worries and why’s


reach out for what u want

just give it a try

you CAN do it, don’t deny


break free the pattern

make ur own way and soar high

d ground is for d crowd

it’s the sky for thee and i


be adventurous, not blind

and before u jump

learn to fly


listen to that inner voice

faint and shy

it truly has the power to take u to new highs


give it an ear and go for the ply

stop whispering like a meek employee

ur the lion, roar out and cry.


U got places to visit,

People to love

Mountains n caves to pry,


Life’s too precious

Y give it to a company

Learn, earn, work for self

Get ur well deserved own pride.


You may say this all sounds too good

But can it be really done??

Tel me how, tel me y..


Den here’s d mantra, read it well

‘Wish, believe and work till end

Don’t deny, don’t deny, don’t deny’


This mantra is the secret thru which

A man who cnt jump 8 feet

Has invented to fly!!!!!

Friday, April 30, 2010

Who is who

I have taken up a new business.

When i tell people about it, they say Im mad, crazy.

Well lets see it this way.

People spend a fortune to get their degrees and certificates. Only to decorate them in file to produce it to some MNC and request them to give them a job, a chance to serve them.

Next, people start going to their respective offices daily to work real hard for 8 to 10 hrs. They face their superiors who treat them like their private property. People get shouted at, scolded, abused, belittled and falsified by their bosses every now and then. But they take it all as if they got no self respect. On the contrary, they would still work harder and harder day and night and still let themselves be treated in the same way anytime.

They got no personal life. Their family life can be counted in hrs per week. And their overall life is a sum up of weekends and leaves they manage to beg from their bosses.

why? just coz they get a regular salary; which their boss thinks is fit for them. The salary helps them to cop up with their bills. To feed their family.

People spend their entire life this way. And after that they realize they are too restless to rest, too inefficient to compete anymore and too short on money to fulfill their dreams which they kept postponing their whole life.

So this is basically what wise people do. why? coz thats the format baby, thats the way of the crowd, of billions of people throughtout the world.

And what did I do that makes me a mad man?

Very basically, I chose to stand out of the crowd. I chose to break free from the establised format of living. I chose my self respect.

I chose to buy myself an opportunity once in a lifetime, at a price which people pay more than once in their lives to get other things,which allows me to toil for myself and not for others and get all the returns I deserve. And the best thing is, with each effort I make I would advance to my complete freedom. Complete freedom as in, I would have all the money I need to do what I love, to go wherever i want, to get whatever i want, to be with my family and give them whatever they wish etc. etc. In short, compete freedom. And that too in a couple of years. And then i got the rest of my life to dedicate to sheer enjoyment only.

If wise people do what they do for money, so will I. Only i wud have much more of it than them.

And its far more better and satisfying and worth to work any hard to achieve such freedom for yourself than the kinda work all the wise men do.

I WAS BORN FREE. AND IM GONA MAKE SURE I LIVE THAT WAY. AND IT DOESNT MATTER EVEN IF I HAVE TO WALK AGAINST THE WHOLE WORLD FOR THAT (WHO CARES!!!) INFACT I WUD LOVE TO TAKE SUCH A WALK AND IM GONA WALK TALL.

So who do u think is the wise and the mad ? :)


P.S anyone of you who got the same madness inside somewhere are welcome to join the walk.